My thoughts and observations from different years

1. Thoughts
I think our minds have been cultured/cultivated to expect/yearn to have chaos, drama and destruction to feel alive and complete. 17/08/13 2.30 am 

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People believe that they are the center of the world, even though more than 6.9 billion people don't know of their existence. Race, religion, culture nor education changes that. It may be my view and perception but you gotta admit it is true, we all behave like that at some point in life. Some learn to be less self-centered and more caring, while others bask more in themselves and forget that the world doesn't revolve around them.
Aug 19, 2013

3.The Word of Power Sept 5th, 2013
By calling on the Word of God and claiming His gifts and promises, it will allow the Holy Spirit to show us that we are not alone and that God has a solution for any and every problem that we, as His children, might or will have in life.
Reference: 2 Timothy 4:2.

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The vicious human cycle is leading to its slow, abrupt but forseen end. The speed of advancements in the past 100 years has been slowly progressing into a high speed chase that'll end in a 'crash and burn'.
June 8th,2014

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What do you see in me? Who do you see in me?
June 8, 2014

" 'History attests that religion and religious people tend to be narrow. Instead of expenditure of capacity for life, joy and mystery, religion often contracts it. As systematic theology advances, the sense of wonder declines. Brennan Manning' Facebook post/quote from Escape to Reality "

This struck a cord in me. I do not disagree nor do I agree with Mr. Manning's statement. I agree when he talks about religion and religious people being narrowed minded, but that is due to their mind and spirit's devotion to the 'theory' of the religion and its practices instead of focusing on the true nature and purpose of it. I also agree that the mindless follow of a religion and its practices keeps is from truly yearning and learning about ourselves and the world God created for us. The final sentence is true as well.

It seems that I have only been agreeing with his point and that there is no fault in it. However, that is incorrect. I believe that religion, in today's culture and mindset, has been given a bad rep. Well its no surprise with all the scandals the church has been through, especially in the last 10 years. On the other hand, that gives us no excuse to cast the church and God aside. We are stereotyping God, the church and believers in Christ all because of a few peoples mistake. But that apparently is how the human mind works, even though we are not perfect it is much easier to condemn another imperfect person when they fall and then categorize them for their imperfection. That attitude and way of thinking is why I am on the bench on Mr. Manning's statement.

I find that our perception of what religion is, is corrupted and based on imperfect human understanding and wisdom. If religion is 'so bad' and 'not Christ like', then did the Lord inspire James to write the meaning and true purpose of religion. Christ has a meaning for 'Religion' and it is not how we depict or treat it. James ch 1 & verse 27 says " Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world."

Original date: September 17th , 2013

Regardless.........however

Regardless of how your day starts,
Regardless of how emotionally unstable you feel,
Regardless of how far off track you feel,
Or
Regardless of how far off track you really are from the Lord's path,
He is always there to hold you when you experiencing a million unnerving emotions and frustrations, and are going down the wrong path,
He will lovingly nudge you back to Him and hold your hand once again along the path of life.
That does not mean we should take His mercy and loving kindness for granted,
As His children we must put aside our natural human nature (of hate, lies, lust and so much more) and to truly live as Christ Jesus who became our example even to the Cross.
To put off the old man and have the spirit of our minds renewed through the blood and sanctification of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Reference: Ephesians 4 verses 22 - 25

Original date: October 23rd, 2014

Life has its ups and downs
Most want just the 'ups'.....
And at this moment, that's all I want.
Selfish? Yes. Needs of correction? Yes!
My habits and hobbies are one of my
biggest downfalls.
In order to grow, I need to put everything into
The Lord's hands.
Everything? You may ask.
Yes, everything.
My good moments, emotions and thoughts;
As well as the negative ones.
What I need is to put ALL my trust and hope
to build, grow and strengthen me into the
individual He has planned for me.
It's scary at times but I need to believe that
He has my best interests in mind.
My Lord, Savior, Guardian..... My everything.
Carry and guide me through this period in my
life, as I know in the end it'll be worth it.

Original date: June 23rd, 2014

It's easy to be nonchalant.
It's easy to be neutral.
It's easy to want to be:
the peacemaker,
the middleman,
and actually succeed.

It's easy being neutral.
It's easy being emotionless.
It's easy being neutral.
I repeat......It's easy......
being emotionless;
being neutral.........

But is it really.......the right......
feeling?

I want to feel.
I want to remove this mask;
This hollow shell that covers,
and shields my.
Shields my heart?
From what?
..................
Pain?
Hurt?
Betrayal?
Deception?
Yes! Yes!
I'm scared to allow people in.
I'm scared of expressing my views;
My feelings.

I learned that doing such a thing,
leaves you open to attack;
It leaves you open;
..............Exposed!
..............Vulnerable!

It's not easy being open.
It's not easy being exposed.
It's not easy choosing one team,
and staying and standing firm
in that choice.

It's not easy being vulnerable.
I want to be vulnerable.
I want to be exposed, open, honest,
and vulnerable with You Lord Jesus.

It's not easy being vulnerable.
Help me to be vulnerable.
It's not easy being me.
Help me to be the 'me' You designed
me to be.

It's not easy being vulnerable.
It's easy being neutral...........
..............
I want to be vulnerable.

Happy New Year to everyone!
Yes, I'm like...... a month late but hey, better late than never as they say.


                                                                   (who is they??)

2014 was the beginning and ending of quite a few events in my life.
Some of those events included cutting some people out of my life, experiencing living in a foreign country for a year (school related), trying to establish a proper eating and exercising habits (which I totally flunked DX ) and many more.

They were many celebrations and mournings for 2014 as well.

The World Cup 2014 was interesting that year. FIFA World Cup was held in Brazil and teams like Brazil, Argentina and Spain were the popular from runners to win; Brazil fell apart in the finals against Germany (MY TEAM!! YAY! GERMANY!) after their captain was hurt and couldn't continue (correct me if I'm please!), Argentina relied too heavy on Messi which led to their downfall, and Spain was knocked when they lost all of their Group B matches. It was an interesting  year for the World Cup and I'm still overjoyed that my favorite team , Germany, won. Say what you like but they deserved it. Enough said.

Ebola and ISIS struck among many others, which contributed to many deaths across the world.
With the gradually rising racial tensions in the United States from quite a number of events from the previous year, Micheal Brown's death and Officer Darren Wilson's acquittal of Brown's murder was the tipping point. These events and many more shocked the recent generation of young people who have never seen nor heard of such actions.

For me 2014 revealed many aspects of myself that I have tried to sweep under the rug, just accept and just plain ignore their very existence. I'm lazy, pleased with just an average grade, procrastinator, uninspired and many more. It was like the Lord just lit a light bulb off in my mind, heart and spirit. I am not a child anymore. I can't have people waiting on me head to toe anymore (that's a little exaggerating but you get the point.....I Hope). If my body, mind and spirit are not functioning properly then I'm the one who will suffer. I was blessed with a healthy overall well being, with a family who cares for me, opportunities for the future and there I was wasting and taking for granted the little things that many others would beg for.

2015 is going to be a comeback year. No more second guessing. No more just lazing about. No more unhealthy food for my body (physical, mental and spiritual). I want to stand tall and do what I can with what I am blessed with. The Lord Jesus is with me every step I take. I have no need to fear. Regardless what happens, how long things may take or even if He wants me on another path, I know He will walk with me, guide and carry me through everything that this world has to throw at me.

2015....I'm ready for you.....Are you?



I hope and pray that whoever reads this that they may have a very blessed and successful year; and what whatever may come your way that The Lord will carry you through it. Take care!

Till next post!
(whenever that is :D )