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Friday, May 15, 2015

Vulnerable: How should I be vulnerable as a Child of God?

It's easy to be nonchalant.
It's easy to be neutral.
It's easy to want to be:
the peacemaker,
the middleman,
and actually succeed.

It's easy being neutral.
It's easy being emotionless.
It's easy being neutral.
I repeat......It's easy......
being emotionless;
being neutral.........

But is it really.......the right......
feeling?

I want to feel.
I want to remove this mask;
This hollow shell that covers,
and shields my.
Shields my heart?
From what?
..................
Pain?
Hurt?
Betrayal?
Deception?
Yes! Yes!
I'm scared to allow people in.
I'm scared of expressing my views;
My feelings.

I learned that doing such a thing,
leaves you open to attack;
It leaves you open;
..............Exposed!
..............Vulnerable!

It's not easy being open.
It's not easy being exposed.
It's not easy choosing one team,
and staying and standing firm
in that choice.

It's not easy being vulnerable.
I want to be vulnerable.
I want to be exposed, open, honest,
and vulnerable with You Lord Jesus.

It's not easy being vulnerable.
Help me to be vulnerable.
It's not easy being me.
Help me to be the 'me' You designed
me to be.

It's not easy being vulnerable.
It's easy being neutral...........
..............
I want to be vulnerable.

Saturday, March 7, 2015

Neutrogena Naturals Purifying Pore Scrub Review

Jasmine 2:28 PM Product Review , 0 Comments

[NOTE: THIS REVIEW WAS DONE ON 09/08/14]

Good day to everyone.

I hope you are all having a pleasant weekend and continue to do so.

Today I will be doing my first skincare product review.

I'm always looking for that great facial scrub that won't be too abrasive, too liquid, or too smooth and during my time in Trinidad I decided to try out Neutrogena Naturals Purifying Pore Scrub from their new all natural line (new to me at the time). I have combination to oily skin.

I purchased the pore scrub on May 22nd 2014 and I continually used it on and off till it finished around the 25th of July of the same year. I used it day and night with and without other products. The consistency is similar to that of a cleanser but the small exfoliating beads can be felt. It has a slight earthy and fresh scent that isn't overwhelming. The ingredient list is short (which is always a plus) and each ingredient is defined so customers know exactly what is going on their faces. The ingredient list is printed nicely on the back of the product.

If the image is too small here's the ingredient list:

INGREDIENT	SOURCE
Water	Purified Water
Glycerin	Vegetable
Cocamidopropyl Betaine	Coconut Derived
Hydrogenated Castor Oil	Castor Oil
Cocamidopropyl Hydroxysultaine	Coconut/Palm Kernel Derived
Xanthan Gum	Fermented Plant Matter
Salix Alba (Willow) Bark Extract	White Willow Bark
Guar Hydroxypropyltrimonium Chloride	Guar Bean Derived
Hydrogenated Jojoba Oil	Jojoba Oil
Glycol Distearate	Vegetable Derived
Sodium Benzoate *
Fragrance *

*The remaining ingredients are essential to blend the product together and maintain effectiveness [on the back of package]

During the first couple of uses I used quite a bit of product which I reduced due to my skin going from feeling slightly tingly to really irritated. I'm not sure if it was my fault (from the way I was applying it) or the product itself. The irritation disappeared slowly after I reduced the amount I used. Throughout my time using the product I came to the conclusion that I would not be repurchasing it in the future. It did clear my pores of excess oil (but didn't really control it) and grime from the day but i was really hoping it would have helped reduce my acne more.

This is not the products fault. It might have worked for me if I had tried the products that were group with it but I didn't have the need for them. Also my diet wasn't the best during that time. In the end it did some of what it claimed to do. My displeasure is due to my expectations not being met. If you are looking for a gentle cleanser that is also natural (says its 94% naturally derived) then I suggest giving the Neutrogena Naturals Purifying Pore Scrub a try. It's cheap and is available online and in most beauty/skincare stores. However, if you want something for oil/acne control I suggest you keep looking.

Overall, I give it a 3/5.

[DISCLAIMER: This product was purchased with my own finances. Everything said is my own honest opinion of the product.]

Sunday, February 1, 2015

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! HAPPY 2015!!!

Jasmine 8:37 PM Personal , 0 Comments

Happy New Year to everyone!
Yes, I'm like...... a month late but hey, better late than never as they say.

(who is they??)

2014 was the beginning and ending of quite a few events in my life.
Some of those events included cutting some people out of my life, experiencing living in a foreign country for a year (school related), trying to establish a proper eating and exercising habits (which I totally flunked DX ) and many more.

They were many celebrations and mournings for 2014 as well.

The World Cup 2014 was interesting that year. FIFA World Cup was held in Brazil and teams like Brazil, Argentina and Spain were the popular from runners to win; Brazil fell apart in the finals against Germany (MY TEAM!! YAY! GERMANY!) after their captain was hurt and couldn't continue (correct me if I'm please!), Argentina relied too heavy on Messi which led to their downfall, and Spain was knocked when they lost all of their Group B matches. It was an interesting year for the World Cup and I'm still overjoyed that my favorite team , Germany, won. Say what you like but they deserved it. Enough said.

Ebola and ISIS struck among many others, which contributed to many deaths across the world.
With the gradually rising racial tensions in the United States from quite a number of events from the previous year, Micheal Brown's death and Officer Darren Wilson's acquittal of Brown's murder was the tipping point. These events and many more shocked the recent generation of young people who have never seen nor heard of such actions.

For me 2014 revealed many aspects of myself that I have tried to sweep under the rug, just accept and just plain ignore their very existence. I'm lazy, pleased with just an average grade, procrastinator, uninspired and many more. It was like the Lord just lit a light bulb off in my mind, heart and spirit. I am not a child anymore. I can't have people waiting on me head to toe anymore (that's a little exaggerating but you get the point.....I Hope). If my body, mind and spirit are not functioning properly then I'm the one who will suffer. I was blessed with a healthy overall well being, with a family who cares for me, opportunities for the future and there I was wasting and taking for granted the little things that many others would beg for.

2015 is going to be a comeback year. No more second guessing. No more just lazing about. No more unhealthy food for my body (physical, mental and spiritual). I want to stand tall and do what I can with what I am blessed with. The Lord Jesus is with me every step I take. I have no need to fear. Regardless what happens, how long things may take or even if He wants me on another path, I know He will walk with me, guide and carry me through everything that this world has to throw at me.

2015....I'm ready for you.....Are you?

I hope and pray that whoever reads this that they may have a very blessed and successful year; and what whatever may come your way that The Lord will carry you through it. Take care!

Till next post!
(whenever that is :D )

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Exercise Progress D-1

Jasmine 6:39 PM Personal , 0 Comments

My Journal for my exercising practices.

It’s a new year and many people have already started working on accomplishing their new year’s resolutions. I have tried for a few years to keep my resolutions with little to no accomplishment. This year I decided to make resolutions that I know need to be addressed instead of making a list that’ll make me cringe……..never again.

[I will most likely make a proper New Year’s greeting post by the end of this week…….if I’m in the mood :p]

On my small but significant resolution list is to regulate and stay consistent to a healthy living lifestyle.

Life is a blessing and I want to care for the body that I was blessed with. It is also the temple of the Lord and He wants us to care for it, spiritually and physically. The Lord Jesus blessed me with all my body parts that still work as they should and I don’t want to take that for granted.

Today began the start of accomplishing that goal that will forever affect my life in the future to come. I am a very petite young woman (looks real young for her age ;) ) but that does not mean that I’m healthy and fit. Size is not the only factor in living a healthy life and experiencing the benefits of such living. I have my mom backing me up (more like harassing me to exercise and such……..I LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!! MUAH!!!), and with her encouragement I know I can make it.

So from today I will be documenting and charting my progress to my small/tiny body in shape and see how it affects different aspects of my life.

Hope I can be of some help to someone who is passing by my blog.

APP: 7 MINUTE Workout on Android (Google Play/Play Store) by ABISHKKING

[DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT ENDORSING THIS PRODUCT. EVERYTHING SAID RELATING TO THIS PRODUCT IS FROM MY OWN EXPERIENCE]

D-1 CLASSIC MODE [each exercise is 30 seconds with 10 seconds interval]

Title	Difficulty [for me]				Duration		End of Exercise
	Easy	Simple	Tough	Struggle	Full Time	Repetition	Give up	Finished
Jumping Jacks					FT	20+
Wall Sit					FT	-----
Push-ups					FT	9
Abdominal crunch					FT	5+
Step-up onto chair					FT	10
Squat					FT	9
Triceps dip on chair					FT	4/5
Plank					FT	-----
High Knees/Running					FT	10
Lunge					FT	7
Push up + Rotation						2
Side Plank (R)					FT	-----
Side Plank (L)					FT	-----