The Randomness of Chibi Jazzy

Just any random things in my life that I feel need to be put in a journal. Hope you have fun with me :)

Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts

Friday, October 11, 2019

2019/10/11 Update
I had drafted this back in February and ended up not completing it due to...stuff.
A lot has changed since then (age, work situation, living situation, schooling etc) but I will post it as a goodbye in all its UNCOMPLETED glory!!



It is now the second month of the new year.
Time seems to be going by very quickly compared to last year.
I am not sure why but I am going to try to make the best of it.

My first attempt is to finally properly introduce myself here.
I do have a 'Welcome Page' but that really does not suffice for what I want for this blog.
I want to build connections with people who are similar and diffferent from myself.
Whether we have mutual interests or not.
But in order to do that, one must introduce themselves to others.
I will attempt to do that today.

Who am I?
My name is Jasmine.
I am 25 years old.
I was born in the United States but grew up in the Caribbean for most of my life.
I returned to the States about 4 or so years ago to further my education and pursue a career in Interior Design.
I was born and raised in a Christian household, which I came to accept as my own faith at 13 years old.
I do not adhere to any denomination as I believe that it separates believers and causes more strife instead of bringing them together under the banner of Christ to fulfill our role as His representatives on earth.
I do not believe that one denomination alone has the whole truth. I believe that they each holds part of the truth and should work, challenge each other, stand and celebrate together.
I am a huge anime and manga fan, since childhood. My passion for it has simmered over the years and my tastes have changed as well but my love for them has not diminished. I believe it has grown.
Through my interest in anime I developed an interest in Japanese culture. I hope to one day visit Japan and explore and learn about the people and its culture that captivated me as a child.
I love art/drawing and have wanted to work in the industry since childhood. I drew a lot as a child. From the Powerpuff Girls to Sailor Moon. Cartoons/Anime were always my inspiration. As I got older, my fear of failure and lack of patience led me to not want to continue drawing. I had no one around me to encourage me on the path so the passion slowly died down. However, after I finished community college I had a desire to try my hand at drawing again. Sadly, it did not last. I work better when I am instructed by someone else but that would require classes which I did not have the time nor finances for. Lately, my friends and I have been encouraging each other to get back into things we had to put off over the year so hopefully I can get training in properly learning to draw this time around.
I am a huge K-Pop fan. I can say that I am possibly obsessed with it. I was introduced to K-Pop by one of my best friends back in secondary school in 2009. I believe she showed me Big Bang, Super Junior and TVXQ videos back then. I liked them a bit but didn't become interested as I preferred J-Pop and English pop music more. It was not until a year later I saw SNSD's Gee dance performance video that I fell in love and have not left yet (though I was tempted to a number of times). I will do a separate post on getting into K-Pop at a later date.
I mentioned earlier that I want to work in the Interior Design industry. This passion developed during 2009 to 2011. I had given up on doing Biology (wanted to be a doctor or vet) as I sucked at it and art as I had lost passion (for a variety of reasons) but after I graduated secondary school in 2009 and started college later that year I discovered the HGTV channel and it forever changed my life.
It showed individuals who had the ability to examine a space, articulate a plan and transform the environment regardless of budget, room size, or clientele specifications. They always delivered something that was awe-inspiring and life changing. Since then, my desire to want to assist individuals through interior design has continued to grow.


Summary of life etc

My life has been an wacky roller coaster. I didn't have a terrible upbringing, in fact I had an upbringing that most might consider great and luxurious. I had a roof over my head, a loving family, almost everything I could ask for (but was not spoiled rotten though). However, I did grow up in a sheltered environment. There were many times that I was very ignorant and ill-informed about the many aspects of my culture and those around me. This led to many misconceptions and misunderstandings about me as an individual and how I perceive those around me. I am an introvert and I am not ashamed of that. I prefer being by myself but it doesn't mean that I don't like being around others. My energy just drains quicker especially if the topic/conversation isn't engaging nor interesting to me. I have been told I'm sly because some thought that I was being a back stabber because I observe more so than speak, when it has always been the other way around (but obviously that's just my word from my perspective). I've hurt others due to my lack of understanding of a situation and the same has been done to me.


Current status in life
Currently working part time after working for a year


I am currently doing online classes earning credits towards an associates degree. I am currently looking for any design firms who are looking for any volunteers or interns. It's quite hard but I have faith that something will turn up.


What makes me 'Me':
God
Family
Friends
Kpop
Anime

Hobbies/Interests:
KPop
Journaling
Crafts

Future of this blog:
I will be putting it on an Indefinite Hiatus. I feel as if it's gotten to be a burden at this point but I believe I'll come back to it at some point in time. There's also the fact that I am more active on Instagram and somewhat YouTube. I have attached both links here (Instagram: https://bit.ly/2NbqzlZ & YouTube: https://bit.ly/33IlGXl) if you're interested in following my sporadic nature. They are both currently K-Pop focused but I'm slowly building into expanding my content.

Thank you to those who stayed around to see what I had to offer.
This blog will stay up as it seems that many articles are still getting traction.
I'll see you next time.

Chibi J




Monday, December 31, 2018

Hello.

2018 is coming to a close.

Honestly, I'm happy it is almost over with.

This year has been rough for me in many ways but I believe that the experiences and lessons I went through and learned will be a good starting point for the beginning of the new year.

Sadly, I could not post the 2nd part of my Proxy Site: K-Pop merchandise article this year but it will be up by the 2nd week of January 2019.

I have a few plans for this blog coming 2019.
A few include expanding and broadening the topics that I post about here as well as securing at least 5 followers for this space I created for myself here on the inter-webs.

Consistency has been a struggle for me over the past several years but I believe I need to tackle it coming 2019.

I won't keep you any longer as I want to ring in the new year refreshed and ready to tackle life one step at a time at a decently paced speed.

Thank you for visiting over the past year, even with all the inconsistent updates. 

I truly appreciate it.

My prayers and hopes are that for 2019 we are given strength, grace, peace, faith and love from the good God above for a better you, a better me and a better world.

May the Lord God continue to be with you all as you welcome and approach the new year!

Thank you for sticking with me.

God Bless!

Cheers to 2019............

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Monday, January 1, 2018

2017 has come and gone. Honestly, this has been one of the most memorable years to date for me, whether for good or bad.

2017 brought a lot of changes to my life. Some include getting my first job, getting my first credit card for building credit, the ups and downs of working especially as a woman in the technology field, purchasing my first Kpop CDs, finding and going to 2 salons that deal with natural hair, believe or not but finally getting and working out my health insurance to the point that I have some basic understanding of the system and much more.

But some of those changes were, and still are, hard to deal with: dealing and working with people of all backgrounds, actually seeing that I have numbed myself to the Lord's influence and presence in my life to survive, learning that you really are alone regardless of the social activities one does, that being optimistic and positive in a cynical world is physically, emotionally and mentally draining to the point that you want to give up but out of sheer stubbornness you don't, that I have a very weak resolve in regards to my interior design classes and furthering my knowledge in my IT career and some other stuff that isn't coming to mind yet.

I feel like I have been finding myself throughout these few years, this year being the epitome of this: who I am as a fallen human and who I am as a struggling Christian. This year has pushed me to see that I've been favoring and leaning towards one side over the other. It's the side that I should not identify with. I find that the more I strive to learn more about people, their differences and history, I move away from the original reason as to WHY I wanted that knowledge. I wanted that knowledge and form of understanding to be able to reach people in groups that are often ignored, forgotten or demonized for the sake of doing that and due to lack of understanding of said groups. I believe I always need to remember the origin of my desire for pursuing that knowledge or I'll continue to fall deeper into that nonchalant worldly 'Christian' mindset and attitude.

This blog was created for me to express myself. As a Christian. As an Japanese/South Korean entertainment fan. As a student of life and design. As a young black woman who does not fit the stereotypical mold of either category. But during these 12 months my life has been a literal rollercoaster and the ride has not ended. I want to start fresh. To go back to the pure and innocent purpose and reasoning for this blog like journal: to express myself without worry. Not to be the next 9to5 (technically it's 8to5 for me but I digress) that can make it of off blogging full time. Not for clicks nor Fame. But to interact with people who are similar to me; who resonate or can relate to what I say; have similar beliefs, hobbies and whatnots like me; to challenge me to grow in my faith and as a person; possibly one day to create a simple and connected community where we can communicate, share and discuss ideas, opinions without molds separating us.

I want to simplify my life. I have gone out of my way to complicate it for absolutely no reason. I want to work on evaluating what I bring into my life, my space, my mind and my body. I want to make decisive choices. I want to fight against my unhealthy habits. I want to fight against my fears. I want be pushed to my limit so I can create another limit only to push it again. I want to get out of my comfort and fight for what I need to be doing.

I have a lot I want to do but I will not let it overcome me. Take it slow. Breathe. Look around you. Let what you see be your mission for growth and discipline. I hope that this year regardless of what happens, the good, the bad, the joyful, the terrible, that you will not give up. That you will fight for what God has in store for you. That you will live life to it's fullest potential.

Thank you.

Happy New Year.

Happy 2018.

- Jasmine

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Music Shuffle: Red Velvet playlist on Spotify 

On January 29th 2017, my 6 month internship at Wellington Management Company ended.
On January 31st 2017, I graduated from the Year Up Greater Boston program.



My graduation from Year Up was an accomplishment and experience that I would've never asked for nor could've asked for.

In my last in dept personal update I went into detail about the program and my time there. So if anyone is interested in that, it's one of the last 2 or 3 posts. From now on I will talk about my last day at Wellington and then the graduation itself.

On January 29th, my mentor took me to lunch at a place next to the office called Trade.



My seared salmon
Salmon was delicious but why the huge plate?!?!










He had the burger and fries special while I had the seared salmon (he informed me about the lunch plan a few days prior so I had a chance to look at the menu and see if there's anything I needed to avoid as I have a very sensitive tongue and stomach). It was a simple lunch. Mostly chatting about my experience at Wellington, what I'll be doing afterward and everything in between. He told me about his work experiences and all that he has learned throughout his professional experiences. I truly couldn't have asked for anyone better then him to be my mentor. Full of energy, passion, curse words and a fancy for knowledge (and wanting to toss PCs of the roof.....Shhhh! that's a secret. Hehe). I'm starting to get emotional while writing this. My team, Trading FI Desktop Support, the EQ desktop support team and the CTS lab members, and everyone else I have encountered, from the bottom of my heart: Thank you and my prayers are with you for your continued success wherever you are or may go.

P.S the some of the lab members wanted me to smack one of my teammates with a loaf of bread and I almost went through with it. I bailed at the last minute. Here's what "K" (and possibly other lab members) left for me:


Hahahahahahahahaha!! I had a good laugh when I came back to this.

Now unto the graduation.

Music Shuffle: B.A.P Album shuffle

Date: January 31st, 2017
Time: nearing 4 pm
Location: On route to Graduation location
Weather: ............FREAKING COLD!!!!

So, yea, it was freaking cold!!
No snow!
Just so damn cold!!
It was a lovely time though.
The service commemorated a fellow student who passed away during the Learning and development tenure in a vehicular accident. The service lasted around an hour and a half. The speakers were a highlight as all who spoke embodied the message of what Year Up is and what they continue to grow into.

One of the speakers left an impression on me.
The speaker was Tito Jackson, District 7 Boston City Council. He shared his life story that was filled with heartbreak, distrust, hopelessness and so much more. He told the audience "your condition is not your conclusion". That moment was awe-inspiring. This man went through so much but he never let it define him. He rose up and fought to where he is now. He has hope and I believe that he imparted that with the audience.



There were many awards presented and I was one of the recipients. I knew I was getting one but was never told for what exactly so it was a pleasant surprise when they read the title and description of the award and then my name followed. And a bit later the diplomas were distributed.

 

After that was basically chatting, picture taking, and goofing off for a bit before it was time to part ways.

At this point I am now currently job searching. It's a challenging and fun process but I have put everything in the Lord's hands. He has brought me this far and I know He's not going to abandon me anytime soon if ever.

I hope that this was clear and cohesive.
My life is just starting and I can't wait to see what's in store.
Till the next one.

God bless!!
Chibi J


Friday, February 10, 2017

It's been a month and a half since the new year has begun and life is......I guess chugging forward whether I like it or not.

I had plans.

I really did,

but.....

the sloth got a hold of me and I didn't resist it.

I want to be serious about this online journal/blog but now I am questioning if I should keep going on or just start fresh.
You know, from scratch.

For the time being, I'll be working toward keeping this blog alive by following my initial schedule and TO STICK with it.

Per month:

Week 1 - Personal life
2 - K-pop, J-pop/Entertainment/etc
3 - Faith related
4 - Review of any kind
NB: everything is not limited to the week alloted

Personal life - updates, rants, confessions, passions, thoughts.
K-pop etc - k-pop/j-pop monthly spotlight (4 -5 news that stood out to me)
Faith - progress in reading the Bible in 1 year (3rd/4th attempt), inquries/revelations about scripture and society etc
Review - anime, music, beauty, health, etc

I currently have 3/4 drafts just about finished. I'll be able to have about 2 of those out by Friday night/Saturday morning. Just in time for the weekend.

Thank you to those who still frequent my out of whack blog as I try to sort out my life.
I hope to present to you the content that clutters my mind in a much more presentable format.

Once again thank you and see you.
God bless.

Chibi J./Jasmine